Ok, I know I've been MIA for ####### days. Well, I've not been having the mood to blog. And now I'm just gonna talk about whatever comes to my mind first
So, my dear mum forced me to learn another language. Deciding between French and Chinese, I've sorta made up on French. But honestly to say, I think I will choose Chinese. Simply it would be more practical for me since I'm gonna stay in Singapore. And speaking French is like raining saliva around, it's hard to pronounce! Not like as if Chinese is much better, but well I hope I can at least communicate. Ok, may be not. At least UNDERSTAND. Minimum requirement. Forget about writing. It's like asking me to go back to primary school level to do that, seriously. Yup
Working at The Olives has been really awesome for me. Don't know why would I enjoy it so much. It's such a different ministry where I get to meet different types of people, mix around more with the adults, learn new skills (if washing dishes nicely considered one :P). And working/helping out there not just help me kill some time, but somehow teaches me about giving back something. Serving without expecting. I mean I have no pay or what so ever, may be free meals and stuffs. But such a joy to just bring food to your youth pastor or may be the leaders eating there. Today work was not so busy. Only half a day. And I drank like 4 cups of coffee. Not that I bought, but all accidental cups. So not to waste, I sacrificed :P (whatever...). For me, The Olives coffee is really the best. The Latte and Ice Latte are really my favs. I will give the espresso a try next time. The sandwiches? Fantastic! Trust me, it's definitely worth a try
I'm glad I've been determined with all my work-outs! :)
My guardian bought the Bose iPod deck, totally cool! Too bad I don't even get to use. Haha
I've been watching a lot of movies. Enjoying it man!
A number of people have been staying over at my place. It's great that I really do have company sometimes just to talk and make noises at night. Thanks guys :) And *shhhh*, sometimes I find it hard to answer Donovan's question. LOL :P
These past weeks somehow turn out to be so busy than I would think it will be. And I thought I don't have much thing to do. But well, I think I manged the weeks pretty nicely with useful stuffs to do. And I have so many rehearsals! Brr... LOL. Somehow, although tiring, but I like :P
Music has been feeding my brain as well
Sis is coming next week. Crazy time expected. She better behaves this time, and I mean it
School hols is ending soon. Somehow, as I said before, I do miss school. And I'm excited with the Marketing Fundamental subject that's waiting for me. I really hope that this is what I will do in the future.
And opportunities to reach out, God how?Ok that's for some useless (pretty much) infos about what's been going on lately. Now is something
I come to a realization that in life, there are things/problems that have no definite answers/solutions for it by our own man-made understanding. Before I would bring God into the picture, being the Alpha and Omega of everything, have you really wondered yourself why life would be as how it is? I'm not emo, ok? Certainly not. Just that I feel life can never be a bed of roses, but we have a choice to live it to the max, with happiness and sense of fulfilment. What I think is, there are always problems around. It's the matter how you will handle them the right way, or let the problems handle you. Nobody's perfectWe all make mistakes, somehow inevitably. When I make mistakes, it will follow with disappointment with myself. Disappointment, personally for me, is what makes me most vulnerable to make wrong choices again and suffer the consequences of my own actions. Sometimes, it can be harsh that I will be struggling trying to put problems at the back of my mind. Trying to convince myself that things are fine. But end up I'm just trying to press down problems, not solving them. It's like a volcano building up inside, and when it's been too oppressed, it blows big time. This is when I find God's mercy. I'm awestruck at times, in fact pretty often, at how things can turn out so bad. And yet Something inside me still reaches out to call me back home. I don't really know how to describe it. I think to myself, it's so hard to deny there's a real God. Simply, I found Him. And He recieved me just as I am. And I'm glad that there are times I feel no one understands me (have you felt the same way?), only He quietly observed my every steps I take and came to the rescue at the point when I can't move on by myself. Look back, I have made tonnes of wrong choices, only to find myself not just learning many lessons, but bigger revelation of what a loving God I serve. Scientists think that religion does help people emotionally. wll, may be it's true that a religion can do so, but it takes a real personal relationship to make someone whole and complete again, I believe. Jesus, thanks for being my Saviour! :). Paster Lance Lambert mentions something I find so true, there are people out there only look at the Bible as a book of judgement where God just punishes people around, send fire and destroys thing, floods up the earth, sends Jesus to stir up the people. However, he said: It depends on what you're looking for. All the judgements and laws are to keep us. And many many many beautiful verses which hold the promises of God and describe His very loving kind and merciful. For that's who He is. And He's watching over you every moment. But note, God is still the righteous Judge :)I've been finding myself keep thinking about things around me. Again, not to self-pity or emo or whatever. But I have been trying, well just trying, to think the way God will look at things. It's hard, duh. With the human nature and God's mighty mind. Sometimes, I think us as being christians, treat each other pretty nasty. I'm not judging anyone. Because I'm guilty of being so. I can be honest now often I find it irritating to be disturbed and how I think certain behaviours of other people are wrong. But I chose not to say it out (although sometimes I must apologise I do show attitude for such). Well I'm sure most of it aren't intentionally. But appear-to-be-harmless-jokes can hurt, I guess? Or may be I can be pretty insecure at times. Frankly speaking, I hope I can just try to improve on my character. It's kinda hard for me now trying to type this down. I don't exactly know how to express what I want to say and I don't want to appear to be judging anyone as I said. It's just the way sometimes christians handle thing puzzles me. MY OWN actions puzzle me that why should have I behaved so. But hey, as I said nobody is perfect. However, we all serve a God that's perfect. So I believe seeking Him for guidance is the best and do something to change yourself. And I believe in forgive and forget. I don't like the feeling holding grudges against someone elseI've been trying to think about my future and guess how things will turn out. At the end of the day I feel like still I have no clue. I just finish watching 'NEXT' and how I wish I can see the future, even if it's only 2 mins. LOL. Ok forget about that!Political stuffs, I hate. Really...Whatever promises God has given you, no one can ever take it away. Stand firm believing and cling on the very hope of God your life :)No idea why I'm writing this. Probably too much coffee for the day. Well, bye :)
