Kids Are Wonderful!

I think I really love being around with kids. They are just the purest of all. Spent my day during work with Dwayne. I just feel every kids I know and mix with are my own brothers and sisters. When I look at them, I see so much potential. Looking at them helps me understand things like 'faith like a child' and why Jesus talked about welcoming the children into His kingdom. That very innocence and simplicity. Kids probably believe anything you say wholeheartedly. They enjoy getting your attention and hang around with you. God would want the same thing from His children.

This also brings to: I love my sister :). I'm very surprised and must say impressed with her attitude this round. It does feel good when you earn respect from someone. I really hope one day when she really knows and understands God, every steps she makes in life will be guided by God. If she will, I know she will become someone special :)

I've been feeling kinda low on energy recently. LOL Things happened and stuffs. I find my mind unsettled and I feel like I spend time worrying too much

Finally this week has one week break without playing for service. When the time is right, I do wish to just take a long break when I will have no ministry to worry about :) Again, when the time is right

Gotta open my eyes big big and look beyond the going-ons to look forward to the greater things

Life is shallow when all you think about are:

Fame
Popularity
Money
Reputation
Happiness of only one self

'What can you do to make a little difference in someone else's life?' - Barack Obama

Well, I think I love randomness

New Blog Skin Please!

That ugly 'tinypic THIS IMAGE OR VIDEO HAS BEEN REMOVED OR DELETED' is still there. And someone like me who has very poor artistic view. So, I'm asking *begging* if someone nice enough to find me a new blog skin :) I promise will give you a smile and thank you with acknowledgement!

I've been trying to encourage people, sometimes I think I need encouragements myself...

The little things you say do help. Thanks. And I'm still wondering...

Gah, only if all I can say is: God is real!

I like what Susan once said: 'I'm too scared to backslide!'. He has brought me to how I am to day. And will bring me to who I'm supposed to be. I do wish I can be a better testimony daily

I dream about having supernatural power. The power to take away someone's worries and burdens. The power to just help and make a little difference in someone's life. The power to just share and offer something of myself

It's hard for me to translate what I really feel into words. Only if I can open my mouth easily and say things from the bottom of my heart :)

Smile always, people! :D

Music and Worship

Have you ever wondered how much influence music can have? Have you ever thought that sometimes there are songs you hate so much, but yet the tune of them just keep playing in your head constantly? It happens to me though. Especially music now, no longer about beautifully crafted and well-thought lyrics with deep meaning and great tune. But I feel it's just plain some catchy tunes and stupid lyrics which either have no meaning at all or just plain sick...

I think music is really the best way to express yourself. Speaking from a view of a guitarist when I play. Transform thoughts and feelings into just some simple notes. Whether it sounds good to people, I mostly play sentimentally in my room so I don't care. It's just me and my guitar. And often time I feel guitar is the only thing that I can 'talk to'. What a weirdo you would think? But I feel it's just the same as writing down in your diary. I'm not someone who's good at writing or even have interest in writing. I did try, but well obviously failed to be consistent and even know how to properly keep a diary. So well it's guitar :)

But there's deeper thing I find, that's in worship. It's really a journey for me from the 1st time I heard about 'worship' back in those days being a young christian. And by His grace and mercy, revelations of who He is and what worship is about, plus my leader's teachings and guides. It's a privilege for me to really serve and worship with my guitar. Although it's been guitar as my 'worship instrument', recently I realise the power of the very best instrument that EVERYBODY posesses, YOUR VOICE. It was wonderfully created by God Himself, and that's the best stuff you own, and even bestest of all, IT IS FREE TO SING! :)

And to sing is a form of worship. Have you ever thought how tough life can get? How hard to have another breakthrough? How hard to overcome things? I would believe in the power of singing worship. When you lift your voice to acknowledge who He is, glorify Him and honour Him, His word says He will honour you back. My defination of singing worship is just to sing about who HE IS. The bible has many descriptions for that: love, peace, joy, saviour, almighty, powerful, merciful, ... Too many

There are points of life when you find it hard to worship Him. Not sure about you, but yes I do. Sometimes, I feel I'm not worthy of singing worship to Him. I would feel my life is not right. I would feel God will not accept my worship kinda. But the bible again says God wants people to worship Him in spirit and in truth. A deep understanding here. But the book I'm reading now talks about this. I would share fraction of it. It's basically in spirit is to ask the Holy Spirit to guide you in worship. Being the privilege of leading people into worship at times, there's really no other better teachers besides the Holy Spirit. I'm not talking just in the spiritual realm on how to flow in the spirit. But even TECHNICALLY. It takes faith to believe the Holy Spirit to impart you with skills and things you don't even know off. And this I would say here to testify that speaking in terms of guitar-ing. Certain riffs and phrases for sure I know it doesn't come from anything of myself but the Holy Spirit has taught me. Spooky? No! It's an exciting thing!!!! Ask the Holy Spirit to teach you such and I can guarantee you will get hooked on and just keep asking more. But of course, like one of the leader I dearly love always tell me, humility should be the fundamental of it all. I learnt humility in a hard way to be honest. Just think about scoldings and rebukings. And this is something I would pray that it is in the heart of every worship leaders and worshipers :). At the end of the day, who gets the glory? God or your God-given talents? Answer is clear :). Move on to the truth. Well, I would say it's the same as acknowledge of who God is. When you worship God, are you really worhiping Him truthfully? Mean every word you are singing? I know this can be tough. I came across songs that I find it hard to sing

'For my eyes have seen the King
Your glory I have glimpsed'

Although it's a verse in the bible. But well I have not experienced that. I have not seen God. However, it's still the true desire of your heart while you are worshiping. It's like to ask yourself, am I really worshiping? As I said earlier, there are times you find it hard to worship. But I believe, when you feel it's hard to worship is when you REALLY need to worship. I often will tell myself if I'm facing that problem. I would ask God to help me break that walls hindering me from offering worship. I would ask God to help me, break me and teach me. Again, worship Him! Just do it! Ask God! Seek Him! And surely I believe, if His children are asking Him something, He will not turn His head away. That is when I often get my breakthroughs. Simply just give yourself up. God takes over :)

Not sure while I am typing all these. Just a little something, I hope it may be an encouragement for someone, or what not. Simply because I do believe in the power of worship. It would take sometimes to sing a song JUST FOR HIM. One of the question I will ask myself: Has my worship touched God's heart? I think that would be my goal. To touch the very heart of God. To really offer to Him what He really deserves. Just to be closer...

Byes